Dissatisfaction is something I find in myself a lot. I know I am not alone. For most people, there is always at least a few things they wish they could change about their life. We are human, we are sin-filled and broken people, so we must expect failure, brokenness, and discouragement at times.
But I want to be different. I don't want to escape from those things despite how uncomfortable they may be. I want to learn from them; to grow and gain wisdom.
I want to be more.
In my first semester of college at a Christian university, the phrase "your calling" was quite common. For many, there was excitement and passion in having the opportunity to share what God has in store for them, but for me it always seemed to leave a bad taste in my mouth and a twinge in my heart.
Initially, I decided the uncomfortable feeling I got was because I was afraid to put something in to words that I was unsure was God's word or my imagination. I never experienced a life-changing revelation revealing my purpose in this life furnishing peace that we all desire. But now I think it might be something different, God's message to me might not be clear because it isn't a clear message. I'll explain.
There is one purpose I crave to live out my entire life; to be a Kingdom Builder.
I have a home in His kingdom and that will forever be my permanent residence.
In this life, I don't want to be an arrow through the bullseye. A clean shot is something to be proud of, but a fiery explosion is a whole new class.
I will not be satisfied. I will not grow stale. I will not let my faith take a backseat.
I will burn with passion throughout my Entire life. I don't want to only be smart, only be healthy, only be creative, only be funny, only be serious, only be dedicated, only be truthful, etc.
I want it all. I wan't to be God-fearing, athletic, beautiful, smart, funny, talented, creative, joyful, caring, wise, truthful, honest, giving, passionate, driven, fearless, audacious, strong, patient, humble, hopeful, encouraging, inspirational, merciful, empathetic, respectful, honored, and loving.
You may not think it is possible, and you might be right, but to not try would be a risk I am not willing to take. You see, my role model figured it out, He exemplified each quality perfectly and I desire no less.
I want to display those qualities in my entire life because when I do, the Savior of the world will become more evident. I want to fulfill my purpose. I want to be a kingdom builder and I will make His name famous. I pray continually for God to carry out His will in my life, and trust that He will. I pray that my words will speak life and bring truth, that people will not see me but my savior. I will not take credit for the achievements of my own life, all glory to my father.
I have learned that there is absolutely nothing I can do about the fact that I am a sinner. It was my sin that caused the tears in Jesus' flesh, the piercing of his hands, and the hole in his side. I can't escape the reality of my old identity, but I can give praise, adoration, and glory for the new creation I have become. I claim Jesus as my savior everyday for it is only through Him that I am anything. It is through Him I have life and I want to live it to the full. I want to know all He has for me.
Don't settle for anything less than what He has for you.
Blessings.
But I want to be different. I don't want to escape from those things despite how uncomfortable they may be. I want to learn from them; to grow and gain wisdom.
I want to be more.
In my first semester of college at a Christian university, the phrase "your calling" was quite common. For many, there was excitement and passion in having the opportunity to share what God has in store for them, but for me it always seemed to leave a bad taste in my mouth and a twinge in my heart.
Initially, I decided the uncomfortable feeling I got was because I was afraid to put something in to words that I was unsure was God's word or my imagination. I never experienced a life-changing revelation revealing my purpose in this life furnishing peace that we all desire. But now I think it might be something different, God's message to me might not be clear because it isn't a clear message. I'll explain.
There is one purpose I crave to live out my entire life; to be a Kingdom Builder.
I have a home in His kingdom and that will forever be my permanent residence.
In this life, I don't want to be an arrow through the bullseye. A clean shot is something to be proud of, but a fiery explosion is a whole new class.
I will not be satisfied. I will not grow stale. I will not let my faith take a backseat.
I will burn with passion throughout my Entire life. I don't want to only be smart, only be healthy, only be creative, only be funny, only be serious, only be dedicated, only be truthful, etc.
I want it all. I wan't to be God-fearing, athletic, beautiful, smart, funny, talented, creative, joyful, caring, wise, truthful, honest, giving, passionate, driven, fearless, audacious, strong, patient, humble, hopeful, encouraging, inspirational, merciful, empathetic, respectful, honored, and loving.
You may not think it is possible, and you might be right, but to not try would be a risk I am not willing to take. You see, my role model figured it out, He exemplified each quality perfectly and I desire no less.
I want to display those qualities in my entire life because when I do, the Savior of the world will become more evident. I want to fulfill my purpose. I want to be a kingdom builder and I will make His name famous. I pray continually for God to carry out His will in my life, and trust that He will. I pray that my words will speak life and bring truth, that people will not see me but my savior. I will not take credit for the achievements of my own life, all glory to my father.
I have learned that there is absolutely nothing I can do about the fact that I am a sinner. It was my sin that caused the tears in Jesus' flesh, the piercing of his hands, and the hole in his side. I can't escape the reality of my old identity, but I can give praise, adoration, and glory for the new creation I have become. I claim Jesus as my savior everyday for it is only through Him that I am anything. It is through Him I have life and I want to live it to the full. I want to know all He has for me.
Don't settle for anything less than what He has for you.
Blessings.
