Less of me

When I write these things I always think...
"what's going on in my life?"
"what have I been doing this week?"
It's always "I". MY life and the way I'm living has all been ME.
And that ^^^^ isn't cool. Yeah I love Jesus. So that makes me just another one of those religious hypocrites. Cause how can I say that I love Jesus when my life doesn't show it? I say I'm a Christian. I've had Jesus in my heart since I was three. My Grandmas kitchen table. But why do I have to tell you that? Why doesn't it just show?

I'm sorry that some Christians use their faith as a reason for war.
I'm sorry that some Christians try to sell you their faith.
I'm sorry that Christians are hypocrites.
I'm sorry that Christians don't love the poor.
I'm sorry that some Christians are lukewarm or pretenders.
I'm sorry that Christians don't serve you.
I'm sorry that some Christians don't show they care about you.
I'm sorry that Christians love the things of this world.
I'm sorry that Christians don't forgive.
I'm sorry that some Christians think they are better than everyone else.
I'm sorry that Christians don't know what unconditional love is.
I'm sorry that Christians judge.

It sucks. No one is perfect. We'll keep trying, but we will fail. Its a learning process that we will never finish.

TEAM

Being part of a team is like making a super human.
It's something bigger and better than yourself.
It's something that you can't do it alone.
It's learning to work with people.
You all have to cooperate.
You learn to accept the people on your team.
You learn that you have to trust them because you can't do it alone.
You have to be one unit.
A team full of headstrong people won't get anywhere.
It's bigger and better than yourself.
When your on a team you learn good values.
You meet new people and accept everyone.
You get to have great experiences and make memories that you won't forget.
Being part of a team is something everyone should experience.

? Questions ?

Just thought this would be a little more fun than a normal blog post like I do every week. And for anyone who maybe would read my posts ( I don't know why ) feel free to leave some comments on your answers.

Favorite color: green
Favorite animal: dog
Favorite food: pizza
Favorite sport: ( to watch ) baseball
Favorite book: The Bible
Favorite season: summer
Favorite holiday: Christmas

Superpower: know every language

Random facts:
* never flown before
* never had a bloody nose
* never had a cavity
* never had cotton candy until I was in 8th grade
* cross country manager
* in mock trial
* in track

REPUTATION

Reputation is a big part of everyone's life. We can't help that. And we can't help but to want a good reputation. There is so many things that go in to your reputation that to be "perfect" would be impossible. The only person I can think of even close to that perfection is Jesus, and over half the world hated him. The thing about reputation is it's made by a bunch of people's opinions. And what they think of you isn't going to hurt them, so they can think anything they want. It's not something you have control over. You can only act a certain way to try and make them change their mind. And then from the other persons view, we have a stereotype to everyone. We have reputations for them all. And the fact is we are just judging them by what we see on the outside or hear them say. And most of the time we don't even make our own judgements, we let the opinions of others seep into ours. I think about this question, "I have a reputation for being the......." and I wonder what people say. Its all secretive to the person themselves. You don't always know what people think of you. I guess that's a good thing but people talk about it behind your back and I don't like that. So I guess to sum it all up, I don't like the idea of reputations but there is no way out of it.

"Don't judge me, it won't do you any good." unknown author

Pencils:

Your probably thinking "pencils"? What is there to blog about pencils? And that's just it. I have no idea. I'm just about brain dead so it might have to be fast. Right now it's 10:52 pm, and I'm laying in my bed tring to get this done because I know I won't have time in the next two days. Not to mention I haven't had any time this week. I always hate choosing topics for my blogs. This idea came from the spread of homework I'm covered in. And just like a cherry, there's my pencil on top. It's funny. This year I have done so much more homework without my pencil than ever before. All I need to know now is how to type. Just think a world with out pencils. Were really not that far. Especially with things like the iPad. We would all end up with tendinitis, not writers cramp. But maybe it would help with the Arthritis. What about doodling? All those silly little drawings in the margins. Well good thing we got the doodle app. No more big erasers for big mistakes. Would we miss them? I would hope so. So this is my pencil rant,

THE END

SPRING TIME:

It's 26 degrees out, I'm wearing shorts and scraping the frost off the car windows. That's springtime in Minnesota. By the time snow starts melting in minnesota, were all so stir crazy and tired of the winter gear, that if it's above freezing were having a heat wave. Out comes the shorts and running shoes. Even for people who love the snow and the activities it brings, we get excited for the big thaw. For me, spring also means track. Running, running, and more running. Running in the snow, running in the puddles, running in the mud, running it the heat. I love it, but it would be nice if mother nature just was a little more thoughtful in her execution of season changes. Spring is an exciting time, it makes me think about how close to thee end of the school year we are. Of my 16th birthday, and of the summer. When I think about the seasons in minnesota I know I would miss them if I ever moved away. They may not be the best, but they are my favorite. C

Show Choir:

So last night was parent preview for show choir. We have a great big potluck then we go in the auditorium so that Mrs. Heaney can talk about the competition and so each show choir group can preform. Well I had to both tech and preform, so after getting there late, I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to finish what I needed to do in time. When I finished setting up I went to eat. I had one bite of lettuce when I had to go do sound for the middle schoolers show choir group called Blue Skies. That went okay until it was time for SASS, my show choir to perform. Because I'm only human and can't be two places at once I had to frantically find my sister who I had been trying to get a hold of. When she did get back to the tech booth and I was on stage, everything started going wrong. She didn't know what CD's to play and when because no one had told her. By this time some parents had already finished eating and were watching us practice. I felt so bad because it was my fault that Jessica was getting yelled at and things weren't going smoothly. We even had to start our last song over multiple over during our performance. It was rough. And it was all my fault. So I just wanted to say that i'm only human but I'm really sorry.

Respect:

More like repeat. Haha. I think respect is the golden rule. It covers just about everything. If you live your life with the idea of respect in your head, I think it would be a really great life. You would be able to learn humbleness. When you would interact with people, it would be so cool.  I think it would really make the people you are talking to feel special and loved, like they are worth something. You would always do what your parents say, always making them happy. You would listen the teachers all the time. You would be a great listener. You would respect the thoughts of your friends. The world would just turn a little easier. But this feat seems impossible. You would have to be the perfect person to accomplish all of this. But I think if we all tried just a little bit harder, the difference would show. RESPECT tell me what it means... :)

Children:

I love kids. Kids make me happy. This weekend was full of them. On Friday night I babysat three kids. A four year old boy, and twin girls that are 2 years old. They are so much fun. They are so full of energy. Yeah things go wrong sometimes, but they always work out. The crying doesn't bother me because I know soon after they will be giggles and shouts of joy. Their pure innocence is amazing. I wish I could see the world through a child's eyes for a day. But because I can't, I do the closest thing I can to it. I spend many hours with children. On Saturday, I babysat all day. This time a family with a five year old girl and a four month old baby boy. It's a lot of work but it's worth it. I feel lucky to have the chance to watch these kids grow and help make the good people. After babysitting I went to my cousins first birthday. It was so much fun. It just makes me realize how fast they grow. That you can't take childhood for granted because it's gone so soon. I miss being a kid but I'm glad I get the chance to hang out with them.

Blogging: the idea

Blogs can be a really useful tool. I've learned that people use it to communicate with their family members, to be heard, and in some cases to even make money. I think people can use blogging to their benefit. Its a good thing. But it's not something I like. This isn't my first blog. My other one I used maybe once every two months for a year. Then i decided it was silly and really pointless because I had nothing good to say. This one has been a little better because I've had to write on it for class. I just don't like how it's so hard to show emotion. You can't see the person's face as they are telling their story. You can't hear the changes in their voice or movement of their hands. It's different and I don't like it. It's not even as full of life as texting because you don't have a two way conversation. Dead. And who likes dead? Its not for me.

MOVIES:

It doesn't seem like I watch movies very much. I only go to the theater 1-2 times a year. I would much rather sit on my own comfy couches and eat the food I wanna eat and choose a different movie if i don't wanna watch it. And I save a good ten bucks. I can talk all I wan't and leave when I want to. Who cares if someone has already saw it. But like I said I don't watch movies that often. Until I start thinking about the movies I like and the ones I have watched. I've watched a lot of really good movies! And none of them have been R. I think R rated movies are stupid. It doesn't make them any better. My new favorite is Despicable Me. It is adorable. The classic villian and hero movie with a twist. Some "minions" and robot cookies. You should watch it!

LOVE:

Christian: Love is a many splendored thing,
Love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love.
Satine: Please, don't start that again.
C: All you need is love.
S: A girl has got to eat.
C: All you need is love.
S: Or she'll end up on the streets.
C: All you need is love.
S: Love is just a game.
C: I was made for loving you baby, you were made for loving me.
S: The only way of loving me baby, is to pay a lovely fee.
C: Just one night, give me just one night.
S: There's no way, 'cause you can't pay.
C: In the name of love, one night in the name of love.
S: You crazy fool, I won't give in to you.
C: Don't leave me this way,
I can't survive without your sweet love, oh baby
Don't leave me this way.
S: You'd think that people would have had enough of silly love songs.
C: I look around me and I see, it isn't so, oh no.
S: Some people want to fill the world with silly love songs.
C: Well what's wrong with that? I'd like to know.
'Cause here I go again!
Love lifts us up where we belong,
Where eagles fly, on a mountain high.
S: Love makes us act like we are fools,
Throw our lives away, for one happy day.
C: We could be heroes! Just for one day.
S: You, you will be mean.
C: No I won't!
S: And I, I'll drink all the time.
C: We should be lovers.
S: We can't do that.
C: We should be lovers, and that's a fact.
S: Though nothing, will keep us together.
C: We could steal time...
Both: Just for one day. We could be heroes, forever and ever.
We could be heroes, forever and ever. We could be heroes...
C: Just because I will always love you.
S: I
Both: Can't help loving you
S: How Wonderful life is
Both: Now you are in the world


I love this song and the emotion it shows. I really can believe The words that Christian is saying. I don't like the fact that she is a prostitute and doesn't believe in Love because love is real. It exists. It true and amazing and beautiful. It's something we look foreward to. We all want to have love and be loved at sometime in our life. Life without love is life life without breath. Dead.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 1 John 4:8

Greek words for love.

Ryah : things love
Ahava : friend love
Dode : deep God given love.

Love is real. And love is amazing.

Television

Pretty sure all of you have watched TV. More than once. Maybe even more than once today. I think thats kinda crazy. I mean what are we even watching? What good is it? A good waste of time. I do it too, don't get me wrong. I'm an american after all. McD's and TV's. Yep, I got that down. But TV, what is it and why are we so addicted? Drama, People pretending to be someone they are not. Oh and its even better when they got the fake person perfected. Oh yeah, I almost forgot how I the TV teaches all the 1st graders all the swear words in the book and how to use them. Thats Family Guy for ya. Teenagers making their big break from Barney to Disney Channel, so that when they are 20 they can go to Rehab. Thats what we watch guys. Don't you love it? Oh, and I almost forgot about 1000 ways to Die. Nothing like suggesting that we all should commit suicide. Find the way that will be most humorous. And Dora. The best one we got. Gonna hear all those toddlers speaking Spanish soon aren't we. Doo Doo Do Dora. Tellitubbies, Tellietubbies! Enjoy.

Loneliness

No one should have to be lonely. Everyone should have someone. I can't imagine what it would be like to be lonely. I would think that life would be almost meaningless. No one to share your thoughts or ideas with. No one to have experiences with. No one to make memories with. What fun would that be? I don't think anyone would choose to be lonely. I hope that someone that is lonely doesn't try to stay that way. They don't know what they are missing out on. Fellowship is one of the best thing and I hope no one has to miss out on that.

Friendship:

Friendship makes me glad that once I was brave enough to say hello to a stranger. That stranger is now my best friend. Those couple of awkward conversations turned into thousands of messages, calls, and time together. A friend is someone I can talk to. That will listen and understand. Someone who will call me out when i am wrong. Someone who is not afraid to give me their imput and say what they want to my face. We will laugh together and love the flaws along with the pefections. A friend is someone I can love. I know they will always care about me. We will share experiences. They will be someone who is not afraid to try new things. Someone who loves the same things I do but maybe in a different way. My best friend is someone who forgives and that is the best thing about them.

INTELLIGENCE:

Yesterday I received information on the ACT and the ACT prep courses. I'm in the 10th grade! This is for when I am filling out my applications for the college of my choice. I don't know what I want to be yet. Its so strange that we worry about being able to tell colleges good scores. That a number can be so significant. It will tell them everything they need to know about your intelligence. To me that is frustrating. Wouldn't they want to get to know you as a person, not just a number with a name to it. Just think that little number lets them judge you. I'm not saying that I don't think it is important because it is. I wan't to get the best score possible. I will try my best. Its just hard to get motivated to try so hard on something when i don't know what i'm even gonna use it for. I hope I can prove what i need to them. That i'm intelligent enough. But I hope that it not only helps me get into the college i want but it helps me in life. We spend about 17 years of our life learning what we need to be ready for life when it comes. I hope thats enough.

Sweet Music to my Ears:

"Jessica. I am never merry when I hear sweet music. Lorenzo. The reason is your spirits are attentive." William Shakespeare.

What a coincidence. As i thought of something to blog about today, I looked around. Jess was sitting not far, doing her homework too. Jess, i'll write about her. Jessica is amazingly passionate about music. She is always singing. Never far from her guitar. Band and Choir. Worship leader. Band leader. Its a huge part of her life. Just like you can't take running away and still have Chrissy Monson, you can't take music away and still have Jessica. 

So I decided I'll write about Jessica and Music. I Type Sweet Music to my Ears in the Title box and head over to dictionary.com to see what the definition of Jessica is. And what shows up!?! That William Shakespeare quote from the beginning of this post. Even a 16th century poet knew that Jessica would share her music with all kinds of people. And not only does she love music, she is really really good at it. I don't know where she got her voice, but it must have been from the angels. I hear her all the time and it still amazes me. She has talent. 

"Alonso. What harmony is this? My good friends, hark! Gonzalo. Marvelous sweet music!" William Shakespeare. 

England:

So this summer I am taking a trip to England and Scotland. I am going with the Choir. I am so excited! I can't even imagine all of the things that I will see. I never imagined that i would be able to see these things. Not to mention seeing them when i am only 16 years old. I am going with a ton of my friends. I have a feeling that i am going to get a lot closer to all of them on this trip to. I think of the experienced I will have. They will be unforgettable. I sometimes worry that i am spending too much time on the future. Planning these things and thinking of them. What about the future? What about the things right now? Am I missing out on memories right now? I need to stop thinking about the things to come. Although they may be great, I can experience them when they come. And experience today now. And tomorrow, tomorrow. I really need to work on that or i'm not going to even enjoy them when they come.

Work Ethic

When I think of how good it feels after a long day of hard work, I just want to work hard.
Work Ethic is so important. Someday when you go to get a job, the only way you are going to prove anything is by the way you work. You can show people that you really care about your job. Good work ethic makes you feel so productive. It makes you want to do more. By the way you work you can define what kind of person you are.
Personally I love hard work. Not just the do your homework well like the perfectionist I am. When I think of a job and having good work ethic, I don't think of one where you sit in front of the computer or talk to someone about their problems. I think of getting outside and working up a sweat.
I think of my sister's internship at camp. All the work and random jobs she had to do. Even the few times I came and worked, I loved it. I worked so hard. I didn't even have to be there but I wanted to. I learned a lot about work ethic there and I had fun doing it.
I'm always willing to help my Dad blow snow or chop wood. I will help my mom clean or help her with whatever. It feels so good when people recognize your work ethic.

DO WORK!